Specially For A Girl Who I Hurt Deeply

She's hurt..Badly hurt..Its so deep, so deep..Everything happened because of me..A person who never appreciate what she have done for me..

When i saw her tears dropped, it sound heartbreak for me..A broken heart who break in my hand..I caused it to break, and yet i cant cure it..Her tears, a single drop mean millions of times to me..Its mean so much..It never cure, cause of me..Cause of i said she don't understand me well.. I should have not say that to her but i did..She mean everything to me.. What i did is just say sorry..However, millions times of sorry didn't equal to what she had suffered..

When i see u cried, its just like a million knifes stabbed into my heart, its pain..Its awful pain..When compared to what you suffered, its just like an ant bite..I hate myself for being like this..Why you are the one who suffered for the problem i caused..I just cant do anything.. And i don't even know you not happy for the whole day is because of me..Until she told me with tears in her eyes..Am i STUPID???YES I AM..AM I SELFISH??YES I AM..I'm stupid I'm an idiot..

I'm so sorry..I didn't mean to say you not understand me well..I just want u to entice me more..I just want u to concern me more..I'm greedy..I wanted more from you..Cause you so important to me..I say like that didn't mean you not understand me well..I just wanted you to use other way to entice me..I really appreciate everything that you done for me..You really concerned for me..You mean so much for me..You mean everything for me..

I'm sorry my baby gal..Please forgive me..Please forgive my stupidness, my selfish..I don't want you to cry for me..I don't want you to drop any single drop of tears because of me..Because of me, you've hurt..Because of me, you've cried..From now on, you wont be sad because of me anymore..I wanted to bring smile to your face, I want you to stay happy for every moment..Because of you, I know what is meant for my life..

Forgive me..

Jimmy