I'm not..

Didn't sleep for the whole night to watch a football match which ended draw.
However, it was a very nice game..
It's seem a bit crazy for the others as my friends told me..
So do her for the last time..
I get mumbling for all the time whenever i say to watch a match during the midnight..
Its sort of crazy things..
But I always got my point of turning back..
And today the word come out again and it lead me back to the scene..
Just that today I don't have the chance to turn it back anymore..
Never again...

"I'm not crazy because I'm loving you"
"If I was, then i'm the greatest man for you because you love me eventhough i'm crazy"
"I'll only be crazy if I have ever let you go"
"But I didn't and that's why I'm not crazy"

I'm not...
I'm not...

Cant Stop Missing Her

Is everything going to be better?
When i think back the last few days and somethings that happen to me in this month, I realised that this month really not favour in me..
All the bad things happen in a same month..
Haiz..is really bad..

Just having my economics test today..I should say it yesterday..
Overall its consider ok..But dont know what result will i get..
The day passed silently..I try not to think too much..
But I still think of her..Think how is her life..How she going to pass her days..
Think of the sweet moments..Its really make me down sometimes..
Its really did..

I still miss her very much..Eventhough i should not have to do so..
But my mind just cant stop missing her..
Just cant stop missing...

Tears In The Broken Heart..Never End...

The eyes keep blinking till 6 something..and now i have awake due to some stupid sms..
I shall complaint this to DIGI soon..
A night has been passed..How could i ever fall asleep last night?
A night which i have leave someone out from my heart..
And it ended up with a broken heart and followed by tears..
Tears from the broken heart..
No one could ever know..no one could ever see..
Should i blame anyone in this case??
If yes, who should i blame for?
Her??Me myself??
Whoever i blame is not gonna make any different..
I shall ended it up fast..As in this case, no one is right no one is wrong..
If there is a wrong, maybe that is because distance again..
And yet it spoil me up again...

And thanks to all my friends who care and share with me..
I'm really appreciated it..
Especially that young QT lady who stand for an hour chatting with me..
Thanks a lot ya..I just wonder her legs got to be pain and cramp after that long stand..
i hope she wont..If not i going to owe her once again..

As days passed by, I wonder how could i survive..
A minute is always that long to pass..
I wish i could have a time booster now...
Or some medicine or drugs who can blank off my memory...
(Wonder if there is a real Doraemon in this world)

I just wished that I could fall asleep again after this..
And never wake up for a long long time..
Dont want to think of these bad moments..

Tears drop in the Heart
Once dropped it broken like a falling glass
Once broken it hard to recover..
Its really really HARD....

Its the end..

Its finally come to the end..
i knew it would come but just cant expect that it would be now..
So i hav to stop right where i am..
alone, helpless..and sometime i feel hopeless..

It quite a bad February for me..
Accident, sucks valentine and now break up..
what the hell is going on with me..
why must i go tt??why must there is a test on saturday??why there must be happen when i need u the most??
is this planned as it wanna come to me at one go??
or i'm the one who wan all of this come at a go??
wth..dun ever bother wat will come next..
i'm sick of it..and i need some time for that..

Valentine

Valentine day???sound a lot of fun..
Happy?Sweet??That not gonna happen for me today..

A lonely valentine..
First to wish all my friends who hav their couple happy valentine day..
For those who dont have then try to make a wish to have in this year so that you all can celebrate it for the next year..
Havent recovery from my nightmare last week, i totally fall apart in this occasion. Valentine day, a sweet sweet day for those couple. But for me, it is totally awful. I not going to celebrate it eventhough i'm in a relationship. Eventhough i have, it is just same like i dont have it.
Dont know when it is started, I feel like I gonna end up very soon. Very very soon..
At this moment, i was damn damn down..
The heart broken, and its not going to find the ways to cure it..
Tears had flown out, but not through the eyes..
Its fall deep in the heart..

A new start

Welcome back to blogging...
its been a long long time since i put my word on the blog..
around 1 yr +++..
been hating for the comin days..
test on valentines that make me sick...
but that fine..coz i also wont be celebrate it with her..
we are too far apart...
FAR???? can see the problems rite now..
see see see..
but i dunno how to solve it..
will it continue to last longer??
or i could hav find a way to stop that...
onli GOD know..but i dunno......................