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long time away again...
2 weeks..not lazy, not busy...
just i dunno wanna post what at here..

coming back from penang last night..
done with all the things at the morning and went on to have a walk after that..
its been six years since my last visit..
its did not change that much but there are lot of new buildings..
have some har mee and asam laksa there..NICE!!!! and also the cendol...
u always want one more after finish..its reli nice...

busy times is coming..
presentation on next week...
assignment too...plus a day tour is coming also..
its totally busy all the time..and yet i have to find sometime for my PS2..
hehe..lastly i no need to end up in cc all the night...

cant wait for the tour this sunday...
wish it to be a wonderful day for all of us...

miss her...

back to kampar..i saw her again..
is a long time since the last day..
20++ days...

nthg much changed..still the same of me..
and still the same of her..
i keep missing her all the days..
wonder if one day i can hold her hands..
walk under a nice sunset..
let her lean on my shoulder...
and enjoy the moments together..
all sort of this come out my mind frequently..
wonder if it will happpen...
been wondering......

apparently it reli got nothing to do with my fren asking this and that..
its reli ok for it...
need no to apologize..haha..
btw enjoy the days and life..
wish u all the best with her too...

wonderful times...

It's been a long time since the last post..
not i lazy to post but i got no time for this...

Finally i back to kampar..
new sem new sub and also some new friends...
been busy sometime on the 2nd week...
tt with members...bbq..it been a wonderful days for me..
and both of the days i slept after 5 am...
the next day then like zombie..feel like wanna die...
totally tired...
2 weeks ad...still got no mood to study..
eventhough we ad start our assignment..
but still my mind thinking where to go tonight...
what should i do to past the boring nite??
cc??tt??or movie??
lot of things to think...

barbeque nite...it so successful..
nice food..nice wasabi...nice water balloons war games..
eventhough we broke 2 chairs..sound like we fighting or wat..
haha..thanks to all my beloved t07 mates...
u all are always the best...
to those who snap the photo..55 upload...
cant wait to see it...

shall back to hometown this weekend...
gotta plan for something else the next week..

Sem Break Ending....

Sem break going to end soon..
Next week need to back to study..
starting the previous busy life again but not for the first 2 weeks...

this weekend might head up to langkawi for a tour..
but that might change due to some reason..maybe end up staying at home only..
but still i'll only back to kampar on 3rd June..

Nothing much actually happened in this few weeks...
some argument with friends..but finally settle lor..
hopefully there wont be second time for us..
and i apologize for it..may everything being well for her soon...

525..a good number to remember..a nice number for me..
Should have done the things on that day...
but i got no idea for that..no courage to do it..
so ended up no effort no outcome..
and that's all..
i still the same things..no more no less..
so do her..she still she..nothing to link with me..
maybe it will never be..Never be...

Boring sem break..

What a boring sem break for me this few times...
suddenly feel that the busy life when study is much more better than the free time-passing life now..
11 till now..a weeks gone..
what have i done??nothing..
any improvement??nope..
have i tell her???no also..

but i did one thing...I miss her every minutes of the day..
yes..its true..I miss her so much..
But what can i do even though i miss her??
its none..nothing i can do..
and i wont take any action to prove so..
that's jimmy LKY..proved to be useless in this kind of shit..
yes..proved as u see now...
and so on..u wont see anything from me..
i dun dare to do i dun dare to tell...
i have no guts for that....

I shall keep it in heart..
and live on in this situation...
just live on.........

I'm so mad of it...I'm so disappointed...

Maybe i should not back to home today...
its not that good for me..

I was so mad for what happen today...
and so disappointed of it...
wtf...i din even do wrong..
yet u all blame me and scold me..
the whole day long i never heard any words that you all spoke softly to me...

I'm already 23..going to be 24..
Yet you all still think me as a 3 yrs old kid to do that kind of nonsense..
you all scold me for nothing..
and yet still blaming for that kind of shit..
wtf..i did nothing wrong...why i'm the one who get blamed..

fine then..keep blaming and scolding as you all want..
I wont either care of anything you all say..
and i wont care for anything of you all business..
do whatever you all want..think whatever you all want to think..
don't fuck everything up and then blaming me for not caring..
its none of my business.....

I shall leave to kl by tomorrow..
i don't want to stay at here....
I feel like no home..
no warm..no care....

The end for my final..

after the so long 12 days awaited..the exam is finally end..
7 subs in 12 days..should be 5 days i think...
its quite tired for the whole period there...
study and study and study...
that all what i do that time..
but yet before the last test i break the norms..
me and my housemate went for game after the law sub..
Haha..And special thanks for my account specialist housemate..
she managed to teach me everything in 2 days time..
many many thanks..
Hmm..that's quite a lot of things happened during that time..
like i make people mad..i make the fun of people sadness..and many many more..
I fell very sorry to them..i really din mean it..maybe is my way of present is not that good..

Just back to hometown today..
enjoying the 3 weeks break..
but dunno wanna do what..
gotta stay in kl with my bro for few days later..
hometown is just sound too boring for me...
and yet i wanna do some mod on my car..
but wan mod what???got no idea...

come to other..
my friend keep asking me when to tell..
when each time i online he sure will ask..
OMG..I really no idea of it..
sound like he really interesting on the outcome..
he more "geng jiong" than me..
hmm..but he asking a good question which i got no answer for it..
maybe its still not time yet..
maybe i should not tell too..
maybe........
we'll wait and see...

The last post..Miss her..

Its been quite a few days when i last met her..
Few days passed..Cant stop thinking of her..
Feel like wanna see her so much..
Shall wait till for the end of the month..
Juz a few days more to see her again..

Final is very near..10 days left..7 subs..
Shud be able to do it..
Start study now may do..
but after this not..
Hopefully can do well in this exam..

Will stop blogging from today till the end of my exam..
To keep full concentrate on my study..
So this is my last post..
All the best to Jimmy..

An apology to an unforgiven mistake..

What the hell am i doing?
How come it getting out of the way i wanted?
OMG!!!I spoilt everything..
too bad for this..

I'm really sorry for the things that i told u last night..
i not meant it really..
after i keep repeating to see your msg i found out something..
I now understand why u so disappointing and sad with the things i done..
I shouldn't have talk these nonsense which have affected you so much..

Indeed, I never meant to make u sad and disappoint..
all i wanted is to give you the best things..
I want all the best things to be with you..
As u say, I might not know what i wanted actually..
but I did..I really know what i want..
its just the timing..Its wasn't the time yet..

Anyway, I did make a big mistake..
I sincerely apologize for it..
It may be unforgiven..But please do live happily and work hard for the final..
May all the best things go to you..

Mixed up??

Watched FF4 last night..The movie is totally awesome..
one hand on the steering while speedin over 120mph in the city..
awesome..
racing inside the tunnel..and shiftin to other cars while the cars is in high speed..
this was crazy..
anyway its a damm nice movie..
should have watch it earlier...
waitin for the next to come..transformer revenge...
a nice movie though..i think...

I got mixed up my thinking again..
To be fair and square in life is it that damm hard?
Why suddenly it came?No sign of it..
OMG..what shall i do then??
Take it or leave it?

She call me up last night..Talk about the time we passed together..
Turn me into some sweet memories we had together..
She wanted to come back to me..A suprise..A real big big suprise for me..
What i gonna do now??Why it come on this time?How bout her??
To be honest, i have fall to this gal..its just not the time to tell everything yet..
But now here come the case..this gonna be so sick..
Suffer and suffer all the time..
Mixed up everything..and i gonna start from the beginning..
think of it all over again..Turn in and out..
I need time..I need to be alone..
I wont be showin up some days from now..

Nice...

Life is short

Break the rules

forgive quickly

kiss passionately,

love truly laugh constantly

And never stop smiling

no matter how strange life is

Life is not always the party we expected to be but

as long as we are here, we should smile and be grateful

a great nice words..

Another big suprise

Get another big things again last night..

Juz cant guess that they will make it for me..shud to say us..coz its joint..haha..

another party by my coursemate..BBAT07..

eventually we havin a gathering session at a mamak stall..

juz dunno who and when they go to buy a cake for me and lynne..

juz in a sudden the cake come out and they sing the birthday song..

haha..reli suprise...first time havin a birthday song and a cake at mamak stall..

the cake..

thz so much for it guys and gals...

reli appreciate it..

the moment will stay forever in my heart..

thz a lot my friends.....

thz for the suprise..

It was totally a big suprise for me..

its wonderful..thz for those who celebrate a late birthday with me..

and thz for all the wishes i received on my birthday..

It was a late 1130pm..which i shall ended a movie in 10 more minutes and went for my bed..

then my housemate came back and chat with me for a while..

all in a sudden the room turn dark..tot of black out or somethings else..

suddenly feel some brightness at the back..the candle light..

suprisingly is my birthday cake..

haha..went on to sing the birthday song..made 3 wishes..

sound greedy..hehe..

thz guys and gals for everything..

i appreciate it so much..

u all are the best in my life..

Lying...Can it make something perfect??

Since a while my mind been pass through this question..
Can lying make things perfect?Lie..Why shall we tell lie?
Is it possible to do so?Is it reli can make things perfect?
Do comment me for this..
I shall make out a piece of work bout it later..

Din go to tutorial again this morning..
I've been absent for so many times..
Sorry to my tutor, sorry to my friends and also my parents..
Just hav had something wrong inside me last night..
Shud to cancel all the supper..But i like them so much..
Haiz..

Going to meet a fren named JIMMY too from penang tonight..
But he much more elder than me..beside that will having a small tt with my members..
Charity events coming soon..anyone wanna to donate something?

Goin to hav a day events with my classmate soon..
Just waiting for my class rep to decide the things..
actually she decide everything for me haha...
I din do any decision last nite..but they keep saying " leong say ok de.."
Haha..nvm la..since she is a nice and gd class rep...
i shall say ok too..fast decide my class rep..
we shall follow ur step...

What will be will be...

Blogged once in a week..quite less isn't it??
but what to do..I'm kinda off from it these days..
Anyway back to business here..
get the result of my midterm..one word..TERRIBLE!!!!!
really out of what have i expected..
Gotta work hard for it..Twice or thrice harder..

I think my pm in msn do make a lot of people thinking of it..
being asked a lot of question for that..who's the gal??
Haha..some get it right..some didn't..
So for those who know it congratulation to you all..
and remember 3m 2k 1p..guess you all know what i mean..Hehe..
for those who still don't know then you have to keep trying lor.
I bet you will know it..if can't then one day I will tell but of course not now..
its still not the time yet..

By the way, do I like her?haha..Is a quite normal question..
but when it was asked seriously then i shall think properly of it..
I guess I am for the answer of the question..I'm not that sure of my feel now..and hers too..
Am i ready for it?Do her ready too?Guess only god will know it..
So just let the god decide for me..
What will be will be........

Jimmy

Can I??Shall I??

Its been a week since my last blog..
quite a long time ya..
a lot of things been happened..
My car, my life and the gal..

Since done all my presentation and test, i now lookin forward for the final exam..
A month left..7 subjects..Can i take all in that time??I'll try my best for that..
Get my car back last week..the condition is good..juz some part is not that satisfied..
Maybe need to do it again..haiz..another period of time without my ride again..
sienzzzzz.....

Been waiting for my friend's charity program..
We put a lot of effort on it..hopefully can come out with some nice programs..
If not it will be a waste..a costly waste...

With time getting passed by everyday, Shall i take a call on it?
Or perhaps I shall let it be as it is now?
Dont know what to do, Dont know when to do..
I wish to love but what can i do to make her love on me??

LOVE means a lot to everyone..
Life will be much more beautiful when you are around..
Nothing in this world are meaningless because you proved everything are meaningful to me..
So shall I??

I'm back

Quite a long time I din get my hand back to this blog..
I'm not busy actually..Just I suddenly dont have the mood to blog this few days..
Haha..now i'm back..

Just finish the last 2 midterm test on saturday..and also a presentation on today..
and now i just got one to go only..but the 2 test i not done it very well..
guess will get a very low marks..hopefully i can pass my coursework..
and the presentation today..its damn damn bad for me..
I didnt even know how many slide i going to present..
dont know what i'm going to present..
and that why my presentation like hell..
hope it not affected my other members marks for it..
i'm really really sorry for that..

This week going back to hometown..and maybe will drive my car back here..
Its been a month..A month after that incident..I never drive my car before..
Dont know how it feel when i drive on it..
i wonder going back hometown on thursday or friday..
Too bad for this few weeks i need my friends to fecth me here and there..
Really appreciate all u guys help..Thz a lot friends..
But i still need u guys help again this time..Hehe..

After the presentation tomorrow, I shall be rest for few days then..
Then i shall prepare for my final exam..Need to work very hard on this..
As i take 7 sub this sem..I need to put extra effort on it..
Hopefully can go all the way i want..

Thurs or Fri???
need to think again....

Empty life..

Suddenly in this few days i feel myself meant nothing..
Dont know what the mean to stay in this world..
Feel so hard to live..Feel like nothing going on my way..
I kinda hate this kind of life..But i hav to carry on..

Thanks god that grandpa had been gone well..
He now back in home..I hope he can be better soon..
Going to have 2 test this saturday..None of it is my favor..
and I din like study but again i have to carry on with it..
And that why i went to campus and doing nothing in the class..
Just to fulfill my attendance in order not to get barred for the final exam..
And that why my friend laugh me for so long time no see me in class..
I been to campus for once in the last 7 days..my mood was damn bad for study..
I have no idea of why must i going to class..Attendance??Or i reli have to study??
Haiz.....

Hope my life can be better soon..I dont want to live like this..
My life gonna be meaningful all the time..Even a single seconds..
Perhaps I shall find something to fulfill my life..
What should it be??

Nothing shall be meaningless for me..
As i will turn everything be meaningful to me..

I'm back...

Coming back kampar this morning..
Miss my home, my parents..
Tired coz never sleep at all the whole night..
Do killing with my classmate..

Once I reach home, my mum ask me to visit my grandpa with her..
Its been quite a long time i never visit him..2 weeks consider long ma???
As I saw him just now, he is really very weak..He been fall sick for the past few days..And I dont know anything bout it..What a "GOOD" grandson I am..
I'm so sorry grandpa..I have never called you for so long time.. And I didnt even know that you are sick..I'm sorry grandpa..I promise I'll call you more often from now on..I'll pray for you all the time..May you be well soon..very soon..

And to all my friends who still rushing their assignment I wish all of you can finish it on time..As I heard mostly all of you been awake for the whole night to rush on it..Take good care of yourself as the way was still long for all of us..

I shall rest more on this few days..Beside waiting to get my car back..Its been a month since that happen..Haiz..Life is hard without legs..
And one more things..I shall think out a way to get the photo from her..HEHE..
I shall get it soon..

End of tired and stress days...

Finally its all end..
All the midterm test is done.. The last test, Business Accounting 2 ended up at 12noon.. Now just leave the assignment to be completed.. Anywhere its not a problem now as it almost done.. Waiting to print out and recheck all the work.. And then submission..

Those busy life has gone.. But what will come next? Lonely again? Its kinda awful when think of this. I dont know what shall I do. Just forget everything, throw away everything and leave myself alone? Honestly I still miss her.. I still feel like want her to back with me. Just cant stop missing her.

Maybe I shall forget everything. As my friend said, passed by will never come backward. No matter what you do, the outcome is still same. So why didnt just let go everything and start from the beginning again? Maybe she right, I shall listen to her..

What i need now is time. Time time time....

I'm not..

Didn't sleep for the whole night to watch a football match which ended draw.
However, it was a very nice game..
It's seem a bit crazy for the others as my friends told me..
So do her for the last time..
I get mumbling for all the time whenever i say to watch a match during the midnight..
Its sort of crazy things..
But I always got my point of turning back..
And today the word come out again and it lead me back to the scene..
Just that today I don't have the chance to turn it back anymore..
Never again...

"I'm not crazy because I'm loving you"
"If I was, then i'm the greatest man for you because you love me eventhough i'm crazy"
"I'll only be crazy if I have ever let you go"
"But I didn't and that's why I'm not crazy"

I'm not...
I'm not...

Cant Stop Missing Her

Is everything going to be better?
When i think back the last few days and somethings that happen to me in this month, I realised that this month really not favour in me..
All the bad things happen in a same month..
Haiz..is really bad..

Just having my economics test today..I should say it yesterday..
Overall its consider ok..But dont know what result will i get..
The day passed silently..I try not to think too much..
But I still think of her..Think how is her life..How she going to pass her days..
Think of the sweet moments..Its really make me down sometimes..
Its really did..

I still miss her very much..Eventhough i should not have to do so..
But my mind just cant stop missing her..
Just cant stop missing...

Tears In The Broken Heart..Never End...

The eyes keep blinking till 6 something..and now i have awake due to some stupid sms..
I shall complaint this to DIGI soon..
A night has been passed..How could i ever fall asleep last night?
A night which i have leave someone out from my heart..
And it ended up with a broken heart and followed by tears..
Tears from the broken heart..
No one could ever know..no one could ever see..
Should i blame anyone in this case??
If yes, who should i blame for?
Her??Me myself??
Whoever i blame is not gonna make any different..
I shall ended it up fast..As in this case, no one is right no one is wrong..
If there is a wrong, maybe that is because distance again..
And yet it spoil me up again...

And thanks to all my friends who care and share with me..
I'm really appreciated it..
Especially that young QT lady who stand for an hour chatting with me..
Thanks a lot ya..I just wonder her legs got to be pain and cramp after that long stand..
i hope she wont..If not i going to owe her once again..

As days passed by, I wonder how could i survive..
A minute is always that long to pass..
I wish i could have a time booster now...
Or some medicine or drugs who can blank off my memory...
(Wonder if there is a real Doraemon in this world)

I just wished that I could fall asleep again after this..
And never wake up for a long long time..
Dont want to think of these bad moments..

Tears drop in the Heart
Once dropped it broken like a falling glass
Once broken it hard to recover..
Its really really HARD....

Its the end..

Its finally come to the end..
i knew it would come but just cant expect that it would be now..
So i hav to stop right where i am..
alone, helpless..and sometime i feel hopeless..

It quite a bad February for me..
Accident, sucks valentine and now break up..
what the hell is going on with me..
why must i go tt??why must there is a test on saturday??why there must be happen when i need u the most??
is this planned as it wanna come to me at one go??
or i'm the one who wan all of this come at a go??
wth..dun ever bother wat will come next..
i'm sick of it..and i need some time for that..

Valentine

Valentine day???sound a lot of fun..
Happy?Sweet??That not gonna happen for me today..

A lonely valentine..
First to wish all my friends who hav their couple happy valentine day..
For those who dont have then try to make a wish to have in this year so that you all can celebrate it for the next year..
Havent recovery from my nightmare last week, i totally fall apart in this occasion. Valentine day, a sweet sweet day for those couple. But for me, it is totally awful. I not going to celebrate it eventhough i'm in a relationship. Eventhough i have, it is just same like i dont have it.
Dont know when it is started, I feel like I gonna end up very soon. Very very soon..
At this moment, i was damn damn down..
The heart broken, and its not going to find the ways to cure it..
Tears had flown out, but not through the eyes..
Its fall deep in the heart..

A new start

Welcome back to blogging...
its been a long long time since i put my word on the blog..
around 1 yr +++..
been hating for the comin days..
test on valentines that make me sick...
but that fine..coz i also wont be celebrate it with her..
we are too far apart...
FAR???? can see the problems rite now..
see see see..
but i dunno how to solve it..
will it continue to last longer??
or i could hav find a way to stop that...
onli GOD know..but i dunno......................